hey, friend. i’m lauren. 🙂
My story will likely resonate with you if you’re still struggling to find your happy place with food and your body, if any of the following get in your way:
- Obsession with “clean” eating and fear of certain foods, food groups, or nutrients (carbs, fats, proteins) – this is often referred to as orthorexia
- Emotional eating (eating when you aren’t really hungry, often feeling out of control)
- Binging or purging (and yes, even over-exercising is a form of purging)
- Guilt when you eat or drink anything you think you “shouldn’t”
- Anxiety, depression, and/or low self-esteem and body image related to the above
- Extreme judgement of your own body (you always see the flaws, no matter what you do)
I know the feeling of every single one. Very well.
these problems are so common.
I’m going to tell you my story because, more than anything, I want you to know you aren’t alone, and I’ve been there.
I struggled with:
- intense binge eating
- chronic yo-yo dieting
- hating my body
- anxiety (about food and other things)
- regular bouts of depression
- … and generally, just feeling so out of control with food
It all started at age 15 with a meal plan in Self magazine…
I knew nothing about nutrition at that time, and my understanding of healthy was about control. Portion control, calorie control. I was a kid at a healthy weight, too, but I decided I wanted to be as “healthy” as possible. So I followed that meal plan to a T.
It became an obsession. I can’t remember all the details of that plan, but I do remember at one point eating the designated breakfast—an Eggo waffle with a teaspoon of peanut butter and a TEASPOON of maple syrup—and voicing my frustration to my mom because it wasn’t enough. She said, “honey, just add a little more maple syrup to it!”
And I remember wanting to cry (maybe I did) because how could she not understand that that’s not okay? I have to follow the plan or I fail.
My eating got more and more restrictive, and I felt trapped. Then I learned about “cheat days”—whole days I could eat whatever I wanted, as long as I stuck to my plan the other days!
So. I would buy every single “unhealthy” food I could find that I was craving to eat on my cheat day.
That began the binge cycle.
Pretty soon, school got stressful and I had less energy to devote to my diets… so my binges became more and more frequent.
Enter shame and weight gain.
- I remember being with my family and not getting Starbucks with them to avoid the calories. I was so proud of myself then for depriving myself. (Now, I wish I had just ordered the damn frappuccino.)
- I remember being terrified of eating grapes that were “off plan”… but then scarfing them down anyway. Binging on grapes.
I looked at friends and family around me who could just eat a cupcake or have a treat without worrying about what it was doing in their bodies or stressing about the calories or fat grams.
I wanted that, but I was also terrified of “letting go.”
What followed was almost ten years of different diet plans—from the cabbage soup diet… to the South Beach Diet… to clean eating… to a no-fat, no-sugar, no-bread vegan diet.
And each time I would “fail” at one, I took it as false self-confirmation that I lacked willpower and wasn’t good enough.
then i found my breakthrough (and your breakthrough too)
Everything changed when I decided to let go of the restriction mentality when it came to my diet and my health and embrace the practices of intuitive eating, self-love, and mindfulness.
Freeing myself from that mentality of deprivation and “willpower” opened up a whole new world of trusting myself and finding freedom—and better health—in the process.
- I learned to enjoy food—actually love it, in a truly healthy way.
- I learned to nourish and love my body without shame.
- I discovered how to face my terrible anxiety that contributed to binge eating and depression.
- I learned how to enjoy dessert in a way that felt good and stopped my binge eating forever.
- I learned to stop obsessing, to put things into perspective, and to actually eat and LIVE the way I wanted.
I am now:
- Free of binge eating
- In control of my anxiety
- Loving food and enjoying every bite
- Eating healthy without guilt or deprivation
- Loving my body every day (and the happiest I’ve ever been with how it looks)
- Mindful of my choices and the peace within me
this is what i want to help you achieve too.
I always had this potential inside of me, but I wish someone had come along to help me reach it sooner. And that’s why I’m here — to be that person for you.
I can help you ditch the food perfectionism mentality and find peace with your eating.
I can help you find inner peace, love yourself more, and live more tuned into life… the things that really, truly matter.
Let’s get started.
- Certification as an Intuitive Eating Counselor including supervision with the co-founder of the Intuitive Eating books, Evelyn Tribole
- Certification in Integrative Health Coaching from the Institute for Integrative Nutrition (completion May 2017)
- Completion of Helm Publishing’s Intuitive Eating Course
- A Bachelor’s degree in Technical Communications with a Nutritional Sciences concentration from Texas Tech University